Tuesday, October 17, 2006

hot brown sugah opens her trap yet again

another loss...

i wanted to send her a get well card when she got home.

i wanted to ring her up- when she got home as well.

i said i'll pray for her, and i did it only once, yesterday because i forgot each time i prayed.

i just asked my cousin how she was and to send my regards to her, also yesterday.

i heard she was lively just a few days ago.

then things had to take a turn... for the worse.

its too abrupt losing her. especially for my cousins. she was their pillar of strength, now she's passed on.

i really regret not visiting her when i had the chance to. i thought... since she didn't want anyone to know.... well... i won't go then coz i'm not supposed to know. how silly. how childish.

the only thing i can do is to pray for her.

but i want to be there physically. i want to read Yasin by her side.

i hate being away from home, this far.

i simply hate it.

i know i won't be as affected as her children would but it still is affecting me greatly.

and my dislike for CGH has increased tremendously now.

i just need an outlet to rant this time. calling my family back home is useless coz i'll feel worse. the few minutes with dad was already a torture. and besides, i don't wanna disturb the other aunts.... they love their sister heaps. in fact, they love each other soooo much that is doesn't matter if they don't have any other friends,simply having each other will do just fine for them.

+ > the glamour babe posted at 10:25 PM < +